When the signs are there, it feels awesome

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Signs!!!!

The holidays are gone. And stressful they can be. Financially and mentally, yes they can drag you down. But getting together with loved ones helps balance things out. Lately, I have been dealing with a young adult in my home trying to go out into the world without enough resources, preparedness, or contacts. This alone is plenty to cause me to grow a few grey hairs. Because of her, and me trying to instill it in her that an education is imperative to locking in a better future, I have decided to return to school and complete my studies. I have stopped and started, dropped out and went back, took other avenues, and never got to final destination. I thought many times: I’m not smart enough. And can’t do this. I don’t need to do this. And always think better and differently in the end.

As I left from visiting my mother in Philadelphia, I checked my google maps to make sure my route didn’t contain any red traffic spots and it looked good. When I entered the 95 north on ramp, I drove about a mile and noticed the traffic going the other direction was jammed packed and barely moving. I blew a sigh of relief that I wasn’t stuck in that mess. I looked in my driver side mirror and saw nothing but congestion and red brake lights applied. As I got down by the sport complex areas, I still kept checking that same side mirror and noticed the traffic was backed up way down here. I had to stop looking in my mirror as I realized, that that traffic had nothing to do with me or where I was going. That traffic was going south/ down and I was going north/up. My lane was clear and I needed to look forward and focus on where I was headed. Cranking up the music, cruising right along and Fergies song “Big Girls Dont Cry” came on and it’s something about the chorus that gets you in a good mood and enables you to feel empowered to get up and do you. As I continued to drive, singing with my palm pumps in the air and my daughters (ages 4 & 1) in the back probably thinking I’m crazy, I realized it’s time to stop wasting time feeling inept, starting standing up and doing what I have to do, and not worrying about things I can’t control.

Chorus

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It’s personal, myself and I
We’ve got some straightenin’ out to do
And I’m gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I’ve got to get a move on with my life
It’s time to be a big girl now
And big girls don’t cry

Lyrics provided by VEVO
Artist: Fergie
Album: The Dutchesss

Song link: https://g.co/kgs/7MuVTw